My Present.......My Future....!!

It's killing me to see what I have become compared to what I've been. Life has a unique talent for bringing out the absolute best or worst of us all. I have fought for so long to be a person people would respect and admire. Certain events however led me down a different path. One most of all an utter semblance of being alone and consumed by a world of darkness. It's funny and oh so ironic that the thing I seem to long for is what I fear the most. To love and be loved by any one person or group of people. I was once told that I am in love with love, but if that is so then why do I fear any form of it? I'm so totally alone now because of what I have become what they all made me. However what I've come to realize is that I am not what they made me I am what I choose to be.